When a friend told me that painter Louisa McElwain had died at
her own hand at her home in Santa Cruz, New Mexico I absorbed the news in the
abstract but not as a flesh and blood occurrence. That was a year ago. And it’s not as if I knew the backstory, the lead
up to such a tragedy. We were on a
painting and photography trip into Canyon de Chelly back in 2004 and traded
stories around the campfire. And I’d spoken
with her at a couple of her openings.
That’s about it. It just didn't seem plausible
for someone at the peak of her talent and success to take her own life. She was
just 59.
Recently as I was sorting through some portfolios I chanced
upon photographs I’d taken of Louisa in Canyon de Chelly and those images prompted this post. She was in love with painting en plein air
and her excitement to make art in the warm canyon sunshine was palpable. Her students watched her intently, happy to
be in her circle of influence. They were
acolytes. They wanted to paint like the Louisa
McElwain.
Louisa painted big, bold and prolifically. Two or three 3’x4’ pieces a day, paintings
selling for $10,000 or more even then.
And she sold plenty. Not that she
got all the money. She talked about one
gallery absconding with $300,000. For most artists that would be a career. For Louisa it was a nuisance.
She was also newly in love with Joe Emerson, her neighbor in
Santa Cruz. He catered to
her every need in the canyon and did so with great joy. He was as en rapt as she. They married.
But he died after a brief illness in January 2013. I
remember that Joe, a retired Army Major, was politically to the right of Attila
the Hun and had utter disdain for all things foreign especially the
French. Xenophobic is too mild a
description. Joe was a tough guy to like.
The nature of their recent relationship is unknown to me but
it’s reasonable, given events, to think that Joe’s passing had affected her
greatly. Nearly as conservative politically
as Joe, Louisa had recently become deeply Christian, a combination that isn't rare. One wishes that her faith had
comforted her more. We wish that she had
found peace in life.