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Pondering 75 at 75 |
Looking at 75 through a long lens it seemed like it should
be an epic event and a national holiday. Then as it drew near it shed its self-importance
and became just another day albeit a good one. 75 after all is something
everybody achieves if they live long enough. Big whoop. Can't take a lot of credit for it. Saturday I had a blue
moment that I can only attribute to the recognition that I’ve lived three
quarters of a century and that my kid is nearing 50. It’s enough to make an old
man weep.
I got up this morning, chugged a cup of joe and slogged
through an eight mile run, the kind you time with a calendar. Felt good all
things considered. The osteoporosis symptomless. The full thickness cartilage
loss unnoticeable. The back a little cranky but tolerable. Enjoyed brunch with
a view and a Bloody Mary, the first in probably 20 years. Later a couple of
steaks and monster bakers accompanied by a Reidel or three of 94-point vin
rouge will complete the ensemble. The message: Enjoy each day to its fullest.
Oui?
And I don’t want to lament the things I haven’t done but
to see the event as a call to action and to waste no days. The list is
long of things I want to do, see and experience and, as the wise man says, it’s not
getting sooner.
The old bucket list needs some refinement, too. I have been
tweaking the same old list for a decade. Those who know me can testify that
publishing the sheep book The Last
Shepherd has ranked high on the dreaded list for nearly two years. It has somehow lost
momentum. Has it run its course or is it on hiatus? Then there’s that Spanish windmill that hasn't been properly lubricated. Son of a bitch squeals like a
stuck pig. Come November it will be three years since I studied in Guatemala
despite pledging to do study somewhere every year and practice daily till I become fluente. It will not
be four. Then there's seeing a new (foreign) place each and every year. That hasn't happened since 2014. I'm bereft.
Live a year in a foreign country. Live in a city. Hike hut to hut across France. Rent a Italian villa with friends. Swim the Bosporus. Ride the Tour de France. Ski to the South Pole. Sail around the word. Do ten pull-ups. There's pipedream. I could go on.
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25 at Camp Cayuga in the Adirondacks. That's my 180 pound self after a summer of playing 2 man Volleyball and teaching guitar. I received my Army Reserve discharge during this lark and found myself on the buying end of all the Carling Black Label we could drink. |